choice and decision

salam :)

what is with that tajuk? heh. choice and decision. i realise that when i grow older and older i have to make so many choice and decision. sometimes choice and choose make you feel good. you can choose whether yes or no ,  good or bad , and etc. but what i felt when i have to make a decision is "only if i don't have any choice it would be much better -.-' " yes! that's it. tak reti bersyukur. kan. ;)

the thing is when there is a choice , i must think , think and THINK about it over and over again all the time that i can't think about anything else. why? because i'm afraid of making a wrong decision. afraid of being hurt. afraid that i would lose. afraid about so many stupid thing. and i hate that feeling.

i'm too bad at this choose-choice-decision thing. sometimes, oh wait!' it's not sometimes but many times i tend to ask the people around me before i make any decision and surely include my friend. who? them----> why? because they are important to me :) are you really sure that ur friend is always right? no. but after hearing their opinion whether it's right or not i'm pretty sure that i can make the right decision. why? because they know me well. we are together for almost five years. and i love them :) 

it's kinda weird that i write this entry. and it is impossible for me to write this kind of entry. but, i just did. kepala tehantuk kat dinding kot pagi tadi XD or maybe because we're getting older and it make me feel like thinking about so many thing. i bet you also did. right? 19 years old. last year for being teenagers. next will be twenty. no longer a teenagers i think. aha. TIME, please stop. i haven't ready yet to face the what-real-life-is-about. whoh.

and lastly my wish,

"please make my friend to be stronger and more stronger as the times go. hope their life will be better. and if you're hurt. it's okay. thanks to the person who hurt you because they teach you how to be strong :) be strong no matter what gurls."

grammar xbetol nak speaking. minah saleh sesat. lantak. xD

motif? just to let the others know how important my girlfriends are to me :)

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